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 I started big boy school (highschool) recently its pretty chill..... I made a friendgroup with seniors by shittalking some kid that was assaulting women at our school 

guess whos back.....me. :3

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 the day the kids who sit at my table in my spanish class get taken off the face of the earth is the day i can REST man

i swear this one kid broke up with his girlfriend and he talks abt wanting a new one as like "a source of entertainment",,, like not even for the feeling hes just bored n that infuriates me the way he like objectifies her

 the kid that sits infront of me is a WHITE BOY who is out here spitting slurs and just like... fatshames me every now n then and its MAD annoying

The kid on my left isnt so bad, well by that i mean he isnt as racist hes not the one yelling slurs but he still like,, finds it funny but thats still sucks

tbh the more i think about it the less surprised i am most boys i know at this school are like this anyway but its BEEN tiring

 dude i like,, i feel MAD weak right now i tried to go to sleep early last night but i kept waking up multiple times, and im so tired i feel like im going to pass out if i dont sleep soon jeez louise aughtrfhvjucidsncjdn hopefully ill wake up soon

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 eee havent used dreamwidth in a while, hello to anyone who actually reads my posts
life has been hectic recently and ive been feeling like dogshit LMFAO 
ill be fine but anyway i feel like most of my friends are being distant or im being distant
which i dont really mind i discovered i like being alone but you know after a while being alone gets yk uhh lonely,, i dont blame them though, im not the most interesting person to be around anyway :P
ok i gotta do my ela work bai i sound emo yikes

im about to go to choir im going absolutely FERAL i want to go home already :sob: its only 3rd period im gonna go insane ewhfjkerhcfjiqdveijsfev

did you guys know i love jellyfish

barbara is so silly she got her vision by singing a little boy to sleep thats so wacky

i miss my mama popee YELLS

okay im going to log off now but i will return later probably

 hello again funky website its your silly friend lotus and today im gonna share my experiences on what happened this week

monday - AMAZING :D i woke up early did skincare brushed my teeth and blah blah i got all my work done and i was PRODUCTIVE!!

tuesday - woke up a bit late, not as productive but still got the job done! 

wednesday - not productive at ALLLLL probably most floppy day of my week 

thursday - a bit nerve wrecking due to my second ever therapy session, nearly cried a bit but its ok shes a very sweet lady! had mediterranean food for the first time! but also kinda bad at the end of the day because i started to have bad thoughts but i got back on my feet after getting some sleep :)

friday - today! today has been silly, although later i have a dermatologist appointment and theyre gonna pinch me with those yucky needles. its ok, i am STRONG RAAAAAAAH!!! also, earlier i found out one of my buddies successfully did gender reassignment surgery!! CONGRATS POPEE WOOHOO!!!! im so super happy for her :D today has been pretty good! very happy :)

thanks for reading this pointless thingy hehe have a good day if anyone reads this